It’s Mental Health Awareness week so it seems like a good time for a catch-up.
I’m doing…well…okay, I guess. It’s not great, my anxiety kicks in at very random moments, and the fight or flight prefers flight, but as it’s often impractical “fight” creeps in, and that’s not a path I want to revisit. My brain still whispers lies to me, but I believe them less these days.
Currently, I feel in a bit of a slump. This is unusual, as brighter weather tends to have the opposite effect, as a rule. I’m not sure what’s going on, I’m just too tired to think about it too much. I still look for the joy, but it feels all too brief, a temporary fix, like slapping a band-aid on a wound that needs several stitches.
Bizarrely though, on the whole, I’m fine and seem to be functioning. I am making future plans, I don’t feel like I’m messing up financially or drowning in complete dread. But then again I haven’t moved very far outside my comfort zone, and I am usually in the presence of my other half (my emotional support biker).
Perhaps the key thing is that I am aware that this slump will pass – eventually. I am also aware that it’s okay to do things that help, whether it’s resting, walking, stepping back from social interactions or getting lost in music and books.
