Out Of Sorts

I’ve been a bit out of sorts lately. Can’t really put my finger on why either. There is a fairly good chance it’s those good ol’ hormones (or current lack thereof). No, honestly, peri/menopause is the gift that just keeps on giving. (That was definitely meant to be read in a sarcastic voice by the way). It could also be the change in both the season and the weather.

What ever it’s been it feels like it’s knocked me back a bit. I’m kind of used to it though, feeling all tickety-boo and then reality smacks me in the face with wet kipper wrapped around a small brick.

I currently don’t seem able to get to sleep until the wee small hours, morning are slow and dreadful and I tend to sit on the sofa in relative silence for long periods of time though out the day. I do still function, the pots get washed, coffee gets drunk, clothes get washed, lunch is had etc…but there are times when it’s like I’ve powered down for a bit then suddenly realise time has passed.

Yesterday for no real reason I suddenly felt like I’d switched back to the super angry and super unhappy person I used to be. I couldn’t think of anything that may have triggered it, it just happened. It wasn’t for long, thankfully.

Set backs happen, it’s part of life I guess. I do mostly deal with things better than I used to, so I need to remember that and not slip back into bad habits.

On the positive side, I feel a bit better today. I am still in my current comfort hoodie of choice but that’s more because it’s a bit chilly today rather not being bothered to wear anything else.

I have chosen to be kinder to myself today. I have an unfinished project that I simply don’t have the energy or determination to finish today. It can wait a couple of days. Tomorrow I am hoping to venture into the outside world for some retail fun and a lovely sausage roll and coffee, albeit book-ended with public transport anxiety. Maybe that will perk me up a bit more.

This turned into a bit of a ramble. I’m sure I started of with a point in min, but I’m not sure where I put it now. Sorry about that.